The CrapFather

2012-02-07T23:42:00.000-08:00

For evermore

I trade love for misery and challenges,

To watch you fall into the arms of others,

I tried my best for us I tried to harness,

But my art aches to see you give in more to the others.

Don't hang on,just let it go.

It not me you're hanging on to.

It's the feelings that you don't show.

Love me darling and I'll love you more,

For love I'll sail,for Love I'll soar,

Because you're the one on my mind right now,

may you stay like my love,may you stay forever more.

2012-02-05T01:29:00.000-08:00

how could ignorance be a bliss,

If I can't ignore you?

I've thought I'm fine,expecting the lease.

But when reality hit me hard,I feel like a fool.

2012-02-02T05:39:00.000-08:00

This is fucking unfair.

I don't know a fuck

2012-02-02T05:34:00.001-08:00

whatever you do,don't make them wait.

give them answers.

Don't fucking test them.

Because the fucking mind can go

wherever the fuck you cant ever fucking

think of.

The power of the fucking mind,

lone and the fucking hope.

2012-02-02T04:18:00.000-08:00

Do I come by more then the wind,

Do I activate your adrenaline.

2012-02-02T01:58:00.000-08:00

At the back of my eye,

I see us,I see smiles.

At the back of my eye,

I'll be there when there are cries

At the back of my eye,

I see everything's fine

At the back of my eye,

You'll be there by my side.

But its just the view beyond reality,

at the back of my eye,imaginary

2012-02-01T08:23:00.000-08:00

You're feeling scared,

because there's a ghost under you're bed.

You blame the ghost for such feeling,

But it's always been you,the way things you're seeing.

and I can't blame you for my situation,

Your just like the ghost,everything is just my imagination,

Maybe I fall to easily,

I'll learn to tie my laces now on,

I hope that would work,probably.

2012-02-01T04:43:00.001-08:00

what ever it is I'm sorry

for anything.

It's just I'm angry.

and those words came from the angry side of me.

2012-02-01T04:31:00.000-08:00

PART 2

I expect you to respect my feelings,

I expect you to spare a thought when you do those postings,

I expect you to think of what you're saying,

But expectations girl,they're overwhelming

Its no use asking me what I've done for you,

because its not something worth it in your eyes,true?

So maybe one day,some day it will hit you,

What have this guy Taufiq bin Yusof done for you?

And the same crappy questions goes to me,

Ouh fuck I cant think of any event I can't recall my memory.

Am I too taking you too mother fucking granted?

Or is it there's nothing you've done,

maybe you're the one who's taking me for granted.

2012-02-01T00:17:00.000-08:00

PART 1

In a foreign land where we both can't understand each others words any more.

Our eyes meet but our mouth just can't open up and speak at all.

I don't know what to do,it don't pump as fast as before

I don't know what to say,it aches so bad and it is sore.

What do you expect,

when those three words I've said

Everything turned up bad,I receive shit load of crap

I said I love you,

doesn't need you to say I love you too

Just tell me what am I to you,

Just tell me what to do

It's like you're giving me an ice cream on a rainy day

What you replied doesn't coincide to what I've said

But its okay,

But its the later on,what you've done that's haunts me till today

2012-01-31T13:46:00.000-08:00

Great end January.Liverpool won Manchester City in Carling Cup,

Manchester United in FA cup and Carroll scores

in the next match against Wolves & Suarez is back

YNWA

2012-01-30T20:46:00.001-08:00

The idea of us,we you and me are very subtle.
Ignore what others have to say because they never seen

that part of you,they never feel what I feel today.

I want to know your part of the story,
So we know what's wrong,so we can work things out.
It's never easy to say sorry,

but you need to know by fighting,

we can't change a thing that have been done.
I'm speaking from my past now.

I still keep it and now I'm letting it out.

But I still don't understand why you're so mad about it.
I spoke the truth and you read the truth.

And I don't know why you are so crossed over it.

I can't comment on anything without knowing anything
and there is a lot more things unspoken.

But ignorance is bliss.

But this is not bliss.

2012-01-30T07:03:00.000-08:00

Sleepless nights of a story untold,

but I open my eyes to the future that's going to unfold.

A regret of yesterday won't change a thing.

But I'll learn to pick up the phone,

when opportunities rings.

2011-03-02T07:54:00.000-08:00

2011 have all the dramas so far, but ts only the third month.Still reading uh?I don't even know who cares the shit out of me.But thanks.If you're reading this and you're not Taufiq Bin Yusof.

2011-02-02T08:41:00.000-08:00

tak perlukan tangan untuk menyentuh hatiku,
kerna sesungguhnya lidah mu lebih tajam dari jari jemari mu.
aku tidak semulia,aku juga punya dosa,
juga punya rasa tamak dan juga ingin kaya.
tapi kini ku sedar jika sekaya mana,
punya rumah bak istana,wangnya pula tak terkira,
bila tidak bersyukur,bila diri masih tak puas,
Bank yang dipenuhi ringgit berjuta masih dilihat sebagai luas,

2010-11-15T23:06:00.000-08:00

Friday after O's town and lau pa sat.
Saturday football match and Escapade.
Sunday escapade and football at night.
Monday Granny house,west Coast plaza,new boot.Anchor Point,new bag.Queensway,MacD
Supposedly today Im off to Gmax but moms worried bout my safety-.-.cute eh.

2010-10-13T10:18:00.000-07:00

BERABOK BEB

2010-09-04T10:50:00.000-07:00

running from reality
untill it hits you hard.
you ride behind pride,
thinking you can hide.

2010-08-31T09:38:00.000-07:00

Baby if I sit on a throne,
saying the world is mine,
I take you to the highest dome.
Together we witness the Sunrise shine.

2010-08-15T07:17:00.000-07:00

I want to take my wife here

2010-07-26T08:25:00.000-07:00

weeks of non stop footwork and sight seeing.
Friday,2nd of July
Was the day Brazil lost to the Netherlands.Was the day I planned to go to town but G boys was so late.So we went to Jurong Point and West Coast Plaza and brought Brazil tee.

Saturday,3rd of July
Played Fico with Nano,Bazil,Izud and Fadzil in my team.Played with one actor.Then went to see the Jewell of Muscat Arival.Found out there was fireworks in USS.
Sunday,5th July
Worked at Bedok.Took bus 30.
Saturday,10th July
Went to town with Gombaks and Munir.Great time.

Saturday,17 July
Me,Izud,Hazim,Amalina and Atikah went to study.Planned at NL but end up in La Salle.Watched fireworks in the end.

Saturday,24th July
Having a hard time too find people to join me to catch fireworks.Boys did'nt turned me down.Chia Leng too.We went to USS for 5.We had a great time.
Friday,25 July
Watched Spore vs Burnley.Had some photo taken with the footballers.Had a great time.

2010-07-26T07:01:00.000-07:00

Heard a song dancing with the devil,
which influenced me to write about this rebel.
dancing with the devil
will lead to something fatal
dancing with the devil
at first feels like soaring like an eagle

Sent down to earth by the great almighty,
used to live in heaven now that's not irony.
Looked down on humans and their ability.
But true humans are weak this is what devil see.

Was sent to earth and made an oath,
to push humans to kick and shove,
from as white as dove
to a burnt black toast.
dancing with the devil was part of his oath.

Prefer to turn to devil rather than God.
You say God don't exist devil is God.
You sell your soul to a devil,hell is what you got.
You raise the white flag just before you fought.

If God don't exist then how a bout barbers?
Why do long haired people exist,what about shavers?
Its because people never look up for God,people become sinners.
to the devil you go to the hell it will end
dance will the devil the music will never end.

Parrot Cake

2010-07-19T02:46:00.000-07:00

Living in the shadows of someone else.

Hiding from the facts and your own self.

To me you're a sinner,

Holding up a mirror ,

Kept eating but I'm thinner

Cause you're eating my dinner

Means you eating me.

Me is who you want to be.

or everyone else,

cause you know you're not the best.

fck the rest cause I'm talking about you.

2010-07-17T08:03:00.000-07:00

To me,life is short don't live your life too quick.
there is globalization and its hard not to stay single.
For us young people.

2010-07-02T08:53:00.000-07:00

Samba boys moved me.Its been a long time.
With all the diving.I think football is going to be pussy sport in a decade time.
Calling names on the losing team is such a dickhead thing to do.
You won.What else do you want?
For now I'm figuring out a way on how am I going to sleep.

2010-06-13T04:47:00.000-07:00

Im botak now:(

2010-05-31T06:29:00.000-07:00

OUH YA!i forgot entry proof.haha!I trip on the General Office door and I told Cikgu Azilla,she told Mr Song,Mr Song told Mr Loh,Mr Loh said"then dont take ah."But i took it in the end.Im just scared i dont get A1.

2010-05-31T06:18:00.000-07:00

Saturday was my first day at work.
11 report 10.30 woke up.Fo'real man.
I took the cab.Then there is this traffic jam but the opposite lane was the one with ugly crushed vehicle.Explain that!
I felt stupid when the girl in charge seems happy.
Should take the train man-.-
Bazil worked with me blabla and met Aniq.Had Lunch and went home together and I think I'm Ashton Kutcher.Thanks.

2010-05-26T08:08:00.000-07:00

We guys love movies.

2010-05-08T07:55:00.000-07:00

DREAM

I was something like a gang leader,
So we are running a way from a rival gang.
Then we are riding bikes until we walk pass a group of ladies
They thought we are gangsters,she took out her gun and shoot at us.

Amazingly they missed me.Sadly one of my friend died.
Then,I lied.Because on that dream,gangs seems to be like terrorist.
Terror to the public.That's the reason they shoot us.
I get off my bike and said"Who do you think we are gangsters?
We just got back from tuition!"
You should see the look on her face.Then she felt guilty and stuff..
and lets skip onto the best part.

So I was sad after a death of a friend,
I was walking on the void deck,
when I saw this girl.Beautiful creation of god.
bright skin,long hair,we started talking.
I remember one of the things we talk about
was how strangely this guy can jump of a high building with his bike.
Then I was disturbed by a rival gang.
I left her.

Somehow,we met again.I was chasing this girl,
when I saw her at the corner of my eye.
She called me.We had a talk,and we had a walk.
That is when I intro her to mum.That was when sis woke me up.
I hope the dream will continue on today.

So this dream had American Me in the starting,
One of my schoolmate(I don't know how he can appear),
Longshot movie and the beauty Is a mixture of this two pretty girls.
What appeared in my dreams,is something that is going trough my life.
Dream is a beautiful thing man.

2010-05-07T20:39:00.000-07:00

What type of funeral will I have?
Who's attending?Who's crying.Who even remember who Taufiq is.
What will you remember about me when im gone.

2010-05-05T03:31:00.000-07:00

See the bapoks forced me to watch bounty hunter.
Teachers go to WM on Mid Years.O'rale

2010-05-04T07:33:00.001-07:00

I'm trying to speak Latin cause i think its sexy.

2010-05-04T05:58:00.000-07:00

Got to study.Wasting my time killing time.
Got to know that life is short but got to live is slowly.
O'rale

2010-04-25T08:34:00.000-07:00

I believe the counter hits on the top right column is 98% moved by me.
Plus,looking at babies makes me one to have one
Plus,I'm looking forward for another FICO

2010-04-13T07:45:00.000-07:00

The World is temporary.
I'm not leaving it until explore her.

2010-04-07T06:54:00.000-07:00

Times goes by smoothly when you cherish it.
I;m falling for Chem,heh.Tak kenal maka tak cinta.
Dah kenal ni,mungkin jatuh cinte dan pass:)

2010-04-02T08:49:00.000-07:00

Lost child,

not accepting who you are.

Wake up will ya?

I just hate you all,

whom to me seems to be worst than the matreps.

2010-03-24T08:31:00.001-07:00

I feel like a bastard.
I left you.
Now that I see,
Karma.
Now that I see,
Other girls crying for other guys.
Its just the way I left you.
Its just like how Tsunami attacking Bali.

2010-03-20T22:32:00.001-07:00

Railing Kia Selamanya

2010-03-20T22:26:00.000-07:00

Open your eyes wide and see,

they had gone out of your life already.

For how long should you hold on,

I know its hard but you need to move on.

You say Love sucks and love stinks.

You blame them and say stupid things.

But you're the one to blame because

of your lack of self esteem.

Wake up their gone,

close the book,

all the chapters were done.

Start a new story

and start have a new ending.

The more you say its hard,

the more difficult it is.

I say we are still young

don't spent your time whining.

2010-03-19T23:25:00.000-07:00

I'm just to young.

2010-03-19T22:25:00.000-07:00

Very irritated to see my cell phone credit.
If I top up $100,unused.
If $18 limited credit.
Crap.

2010-03-18T12:19:00.000-07:00

Just watched The Butterfly Effect.
Superbly done.
Had a group study just now.
Met Noi.She came and we had chat and updating and telling stories.
I need to sleep.If not,I'm going to have a cold war with mom.

2010-03-16T09:02:00.000-07:00

Talk to me,
I have no money to go to SP tomorrow.
I'm broke.I know its my fault.
But I just cant control my anger.
I just can't stand yelling,
I just can't stand not talking to you.
I had apologized,i need money to go SP.

Sorry Mom.

2010-03-16T08:45:00.000-07:00

By the way,my family tree lost a branch.
What I really meant was I lost an uncle.
I don't know how to explain our relations.
He's a husband to my mother's cousin.
Its very scary.To think about death.
Because,
there is so many things I want to do in life.
So many things I have not done in life.

So I,and some other men,carried his body to level one.
The lift is to small,
that is why we need to climb down from level 11.
After that,when I took a nap,
I dreamt,
I know I'm on the 11 floor,which is where my unit is,
but,the LED lift thing on the top says LEVEL 149.
So I pressed the 1st floor.I looked out.
I saw this kid holding a football with his dad.He's at Level one.
But the lift continue to go down,underground.
Level 1 is underground.

Hazim then woke me up.Damn I'm sweating.

2010-03-16T08:40:00.000-07:00

Went to do my homework and then,
asking my self"which chapter did we stop?"
Open up my textbook."when in the hell did i studied this"
Did not do my revision.That's why.
Need to keep myself busy
to stop me from doing stupid things
and waste time.

2010-03-16T08:13:00.000-07:00

Going to SP alone.Tomorrow.

2010-03-15T10:32:00.000-07:00

I just hope she's ugly to them.
She's beautiful to me.
So they wont bother looking.
I'll be happily loving.
I'm tired of beautiful girls,
who just got trapped,
being all alone later,
down and sad.

I hate it when you got the skills,
the skills that's beyond my wills.

2010-03-10T07:11:00.000-08:00

I don't know why I cant stand screaming.
End up,I'll join in screaming.
I'm scared,of this.
What am i going to be with this type of attitude.
Who would like a hot tampered bustard as someone near them?

2010-03-06T07:00:00.000-08:00

These ancient skies,
I've got this wondering eyes,
but you took me by surprise
when you let me inside of you,

2010-03-05T09:11:00.001-08:00

I want to be like my dad.
Who goes around the world.
Seen so many places.
Seen different types of people.
He even knows where people come just by the slang.
This is the only part of my dad that I want to become.
Maybe the Cook too:)

2010-02-26T06:26:00.000-08:00

Fight Club.Word up?

2010-02-21T08:26:00.000-08:00

Get a TV,
Get a couch,
Get a DVD player,
Get a refrigerator,
Get lots of DVD.
Rot to Death.

2010-02-16T07:54:00.000-08:00

Ikan di laut,
Asam di darat,
Di dalam periuk,
Bertemu jua.

A Malay saying about fate.

Meanings :
Fishes in the sea,
Spices on land,
In the frying pan will they meet.

So don't worry.Don't be stressed up to confess.
If you both are really fated,
You will be together.

Happy Valentine's Day

2010-01-19T04:57:00.000-08:00

I see those pain behind you smile,
I see your tears behind your eyes,
You say its the truth but I know its all lies
My ear ache when I hear your silent cries.
Why do you hide all your feelings inside?
She wont know whats going through you mind.
So tell someone that you love,
what you're thinking of,
if tomorrow never comes.

2010-01-08T07:40:00.000-08:00

Now i know how you feel.
Because I'm feeling what you used to feel.
I really adore your patience.
I pretend to be deaf,
I pretend not to see.
Now Karma got me,
I'm sorry,
there's just ego in me.

2010-01-08T07:11:00.000-08:00

A rose in the garden dare not to pick,
was forced to do it until they made him sick
of listening,
to realize waiting,
is just self hurting.

So he manage to climb over the fence,
watched by all his friends,
they watched happily while he feel all the tense.
They say the rose is easily falling into his hands.
So he try his luck thinking he stand a chance.

But the Rose is not falling.
His hand must do the grabbing.
So he keep on waiting,
was never ever trying.

When he realize he had the hands
to grab the Rose and get out of the fence,
He realize he is competing with many men.

He tried to grab the rose,
but there's a thorn.
It cut his hands,
he hurt himself,
and his heart is torn.

He hurt himself,
by taking the rose.
He hurt himself,
trying to fall in love.

2009-12-24T06:30:00.000-08:00

I dont know whats happening,
I dont know what should I feel,
I dont know what should I do.
I regret topping up my credit to 100.
It should only be 18.

2009-12-23T04:34:00.000-08:00

Okay I do this because of LCL.
I pass my N with flying colors.
Actually nt so la.I aimed for 13 but gt 15 instead.
Here are the latest updates of my life
the pics starts from the bottom sorry:D

2009-12-02T09:42:00.000-08:00

2009-12-02T09:25:00.000-08:00

For the first time of my life I saw you pic and said"eww"
For the first time of my life I saw my e-mail and usually smile,but now its"What the FUCK are you trying to imply?

2009-11-25T03:47:00.000-08:00

Which school would call in a Superstar to perform in the Grad night?

2009-11-22T23:54:00.001-08:00

He went to war,left his girlfriend.
Won the war,coming home just to find his girl sleeping with another man.

2009-11-22T23:37:00.000-08:00

I want to go Sentosa,
I want to sit at Starbucks opp Fullerton Hotel,
I want to shit.

2009-11-15T07:03:00.001-08:00

I want to buy lots of DVDs.

2009-11-09T09:01:00.000-08:00

Okay go!I'm going prom.But still not sure what to wear.

2009-11-07T10:26:00.000-08:00

I'm looking forward to :
Overnight at Gramps house with cousins,
Watching Live football at Kopitiam/Kallang/Clark Quay,
Birthday Presents.
Wild Wild Wet and Chalet with cousins,
Tok Amin Family Gathering at ECP.

2009-10-18T10:16:00.000-07:00

Who's first thing in mind when you hear a love song,
Who's first thing in mind when you watch a love movie,
Who's first thing in mind when you feel like falling in love.
Your true amazing when you tell them,you love them.
Cause for me I don't have the guts.
Seems all easy in the movies.
My life's a movie too.
A movie that is nothing like the Hollywood.

2009-10-16T10:40:00.000-07:00

Raya bersama Railing Kia*EST 2008*

2009-10-14T21:51:00.000-07:00

I wish I could turn back time and shut my mouth
and never share my thoughts.
Now this is getting more irritating.
Is is me who hate to lose,
or is it him who love to be the best.

2009-10-13T10:24:00.000-07:00

Ouh ya I forgot I saw Mae Sta Maria.

2009-10-13T10:16:00.000-07:00

Interview or Maths paper.
Took me hours siot.
No reception lagi worst.

2009-10-08T08:01:00.000-07:00

N levels done,
what next?
my name vandalized on special room.

2009-10-02T11:30:00.000-07:00

2009-10-01T06:24:00.000-07:00

From ups and downs,
From friendships,
and break ups.
From cry and laughter.
From all the pain i suffered.
From all the fights
From all the wrong,
From all the wrights.
I will me my secondary school life.
This maybe the last time I talk about a secondary school life.
Because tomorrow is the last day of of it.

2009-09-27T01:16:00.000-07:00

I hate it when i try to study but end up sleeping.
Hari Rayas have been boring.
10 house so far I've visited.
Not much in collection campaign.hehe..

2009-09-16T02:29:00.000-07:00

2009-09-01T09:31:00.000-07:00

Jamming without mic.baek eh?what a day.

2009-09-01T09:28:00.000-07:00

on top of the world

2009-09-01T09:15:00.000-07:00

N levels,N leves

2009-08-18T10:40:00.001-07:00

Angan-angan Flo Rida

2009-08-08T12:01:00.000-07:00

HAHA,not sleeping ah.last post of the day,
Happy ? ?th birthday Singapura!
- -

2009-08-08T11:58:00.000-07:00

Look at my "boncet-nesss"

Bazil's

2009-08-08T11:49:00.000-07:00

Grabed some pictures from facebook,
Alot more to come.
dead nt sleeping.3am already!

2009-08-08T11:33:00.000-07:00

Sleeping late everyday,
playing laptop in the dark,
myopia shits.
N level coming aware but not doing anything.
1 minute "semangat" then next second..
"Taufiq want to play the laptop?"
Maths!Maths!Maths!

2009-08-07T09:03:00.001-07:00

Waiting for pictures from Noi.

2009-08-02T02:29:00.000-07:00

wow.fireworks.

2009-07-30T10:02:00.001-07:00

Pictures of you, pictures of me
Hung upon your wall for the world to see
Pictures of you, pictures of me
Remind us all of what we used to be

2009-07-15T07:30:00.000-07:00

Abang Didi held his wedding ceremony at Bangi and Singapore.So this are the pictures.

So this is the mansion....
That couple is the newly wed
This boy is newly eating

I like this one
Cameras everywhere

Trying something different
Kantoi(busted)

Ok done:D
More pictures uploaded in my Facebook account.

2009-07-11T10:55:00.001-07:00

My cousin got married last two weeks.At KL.Last week they did it again in Singapore.Pictures upload later.I got a polaroid camera.I'm going out soon to take pictures.Anywhere that got a nice view.

2009-06-17T23:28:00.000-07:00

OK that was me trying to be Mr Cullen,Fir was like "Eh haiya not ready..Mother...."
See Hazeem he realise wearing specs is not handsome so..
Two movies straight,heh:D
Upload more pics later.

2009-06-14T12:07:00.001-07:00

CERRY BERRY ANNE,:D

2009-06-14T12:00:00.000-07:00

Fadzil's Johore Condo

2009-06-10T06:10:00.000-07:00

Backstabbers,

Believe no one,
Believe yourself.
Everybody lies,
And you're the only one left.
With all this snitch
With all this bitch.
Blood sucking double faced god damn leech.
Without you knowing its your best friend
Who turn around against you with another men
Who turn around without a helping hand
You're a lost chick without no mother hen.
Friend till death friends for life?
Fuck that philosophy look at my life.
Friends turn away you got no one around.
I'm left alone,lost but not found.
So take care Joy don't be a rat
Remember Satan promise God he would turn us bad.

2009-06-10T05:31:00.000-07:00

Okay so I went to Singapore Flyer had lunch and a one round trip.This were the pics.

2009-05-28T06:19:00.000-07:00

My Pride,My Team Liverpool Football Club 1892

2009-05-12T21:15:00.001-07:00

deleting blog soon,using LJ.

2009-05-09T23:12:00.000-07:00

I'm felling stressed up.
Nothing to do with exams.
Just like a pile of shit in me.
Should not listened to them.
And yes you should not give me all this.

2009-05-07T08:30:00.000-07:00

Hey!Last Friday,went to west coast park for family reunion.